she enjoys running, jumping and climbing
can throw a ball over her head
can get off and on chairs
still does not talk
but she imitates humming and singing
she tries to put on her shoes by her self
does not know how to unwrap candy, she will eat a 3 musketeer with the wrapper still on
she knows how to put things away and bring me something that i ask for
Potty training: still has not done anything in the potty, but she she loves wearing pull ups
going for walks is one of her favorite things to do.

this past weekend: it was 80 degress out saterday so wendy and i went to the pool, wendy had a blast. she just sits on the steps in the pool and splashes in the water. we both got sunburnt. had too much fun and lost track of time. wish i had a camera though she was soo cute.  that night my room mates dad was in town and he took us out to dinner. wendy loves mr. enerson (my room mates dad). today is was freezing out. we walked to the pet smart and looked at all the animals. wendy loved this one orange boy cat, over all the other cats. i like this white baby but wendy likes the older cats better. i was thinking about getting one, but then i had to do some reading on it and decided maybe later. i wouldnt have time to take care of it, or the money.

this week: lol in my calendar it says monday is labour day in austailia and i kept thinking it was labor day, lol. monday and tuesday i have school. tuesday i have a speech to give about how to hoop dance. next speech has to be persuasive. we need to apply for medicaid. i need to make a doctors apointment for a pap smear and birth control.

to do list:
return books to library look for more books
grocery
go on a job search

the rest of the week:
thursday: job search some more/ homework
friday: homework
saterday: beach (maybe)/ homework
sunday: homework

grocery list:
laundry detergent
8 apples
bannanas
2 loafs of bread
chocolate syrup
milk
wipes
toilet paper
soap
bologna
ham
mayo
yogurt
disinfecting wipes

monday: my medical law and ethics class is done now. i dont know my grade in there yet. now i have 2 classes a week. yaaahh but now i have soo much work in my speech class. on monday night in my medical office procedures class a couple girls from the dental assisting program came in looking for people to x-ray. i volunteered. and whoa was that a mistake the girl i had kept choking me and hurting my mouth and it took her an hour to do all this. i was like aahahahahaha. anyway then when i went back to class my teacher had the class watching the devil wears prada, and wants us to write an essay on dealing with people with difficult personalities in the work place.

tuesday for my speech class the teacher wasn't there so we watched a movie called the great debaters. wich is a really good movie. i have a speach due next week and she said we can write it on anything so im writing it on hoop dancing. how to dance with the hula hoop. cause thats something new im trying to learn myself. i thought it would be intresting. she did say it was ok to do. but i got to get cracking on it. i have to write an outline, find 2 different sources. which is hard cause i can only find stuff on the internet. and theni have to make a power point presentation. oh yes and it was mardi gras which i couldn't celebrate because of school and homework.

other: are medicaid ran out. and we have to apply again. im pissed because my family planning medicad runs out march 31 and i called to make an appointment for a pap smear and birth control pills and they can't make me an appointment until april. i cant go that long with out birth control and then i wont have my medicaid. soo we are going to be busy trying to get back on that. which is a pain in the ass. since the office is an hour away and if we mail it they dont get it on time and make us apply again. i hate medicaid. i hate the applying for it every 6 months.

rent: maxine and i went up to the front office to pay the rest of the rent we owed. wich was 600. when we went up there they said we owed 950. but ryan paid his half of the rent. ryan checked his bank the money went trhough, but its not showing up that he paid for this month on the computer. now we are like what the hell. ryan also gave the check to someone who doesn't work in the office anymore. soo we dont know if it just didnt go through, got lost, or stolen. the front office told him to get a bank reciept proving it whent through. soo hopfully this will pass and be ok. next months rent is going to be late also. rents due on the 1st and im waiting on my tax renturn which im expecting on the 10th to pay rent. still looking for a job. some places are actually hiring now, steak n shake and jc penney. 

today: homework and laundry all day.

chocolate face

today: i have 3 speeches i have to write that are due next month so i headed to the library to fget some ideas. this library doesn't really help couldn't find anything. plus i took wendy with me to get her out of the house. i tried to read a book to her she would go and climb up on the book shelves. so i took her to the toddler computer area. and she was intrested for like 5 mins and then wanted to climb over to the big kids computer area. when i was trying to look for books she kept running from me and hiding behind people. and when i would grab her and try to keep her by me she would through a fit. kick and scream. i was the only one though there was another mom in there having the same problem lol.

i went with my sister to her doctors apointment to see a psychiatrist. she has been having anxiety attacks. this was her first visit and she is never going back. we were in the waiting room for an hour and then we sat in his office for another hour ( he didn't show up). she got frustrated and we left around 8:00pm her apointment was 5:30. so yeah. 

tomorrow: try to get as much homework done as possible. clean. get groceries. go to kohls (i have a gift card). make my gyno apointment.

 

 

( wendy with oreo cookie face )

 

me and raven
what we do: im a stay at home mom and college student. he pressure washes houses.
where we met: we met in st. augustine on st. george street on st. patricks day of the year 2006
when we started dating: after 3 weeks of just hanging out he asked me out
when he asked me to marry him: a week after we started dating he told me he was in love with me and wanted to marry me and wanted me to be the mother of his child. but he was drunk lol. but  he always said he was going to marry me.
when are we getting married: a soon as possible. we need money
what i love about him: he cleans, he cooks, hes funny, hes fun, hes smart, he's sensitive, hes positive, he's caring

this past weekend: raven and i just spent time together. i left wendy with my mom cause i still did not have electric. raven and i had a relaxing time together though. i got foot rubs and back rubs. i got kisses. and he made me hotdogs and coffie everytime i asked. we went down to the hot tub with maxine and larry. it was nice though. wish we had electric. maxine is suppose to go pay the electric today. we still havn't paid the rest of our rent. i got money from my school but it was only $488 and we need around $600. i know i'll have money to pay next months because of my tax return money. raven is going to go sell his new boat for 300 that was given to him as a gift.

so our ex roomate ryan still hasn't gotten all of his stuff out of the apartment. he came by this week end raven and i were the only ones home in the bedroom just talking . and he comes in and starts yelling that hes going to kick ravens ass because raven pissed on his jacket. i dont know why he thinks raven would do that. raven never went near his jacket. nor does he go around pissing on people jackets. ryan left his jacket in the hall bathroom and larry's dog pissed on it. he doesnt believe us. he says its humans piss and raven did it. this guy is very annoying.

wendy weighs 22 pounds. the doctor says shes normal now.

shit that went down at my moms: ok my mom baby sits wendy. i dont have anyone else to watch her and i dont have money. my moms house is dirty. and it bothers me to no end
list of things that bother me:
the carpet hasn't been vaccumed since may, theres crums and dust all over.
theres dead roaches that no will pick up, and my mom wont let any one touch the dead roaches (i dont know why)
there is old food and crums alll over the kitchen that has not been swept in 3 months. mountains of cereal, chips, and pop corn.
dust. soo much fucking dust. i have allergies and i cant breath in there.
the bathroom is moldy. toilet paper all over the floor from  my mom using it to cover the toilet seat and then just throws the toilet paper on the floor.
the toilet is rusting and the bathtub.
she baths wendy in the sink still
 and she is not helping me potty train wendy because the bathroom is dirty.

ok soo every time i go to drop wendy off i say something about it. i offer to help  clean. she keeps saying shes going to do it. and she doesnt. and if i try to do clean she yells at me and tells me i have a mental problem because i cant handle it. she has called the police on me twice for trying to clean the house. they just tell me to go somewhere else its not my house. so that pisses me off.
anyway me and my mother got a huge fight about it. and my brother got into it. and said all kinds of mean things to me. i didnt say anything mean to him. things he said:
i ruined him and the rest of the families lives.
that he hopes i die
 that i make him want to kill himself
that no one in the family cares about me
im trash
oh and im a bad mother
because when wendy was a new born and woke up in the middle of the night crying and wouldnt go back to bed i would cry with her. cause i would have to wake up early for work. and i would yell for someone to come and help with her. but i got blamed for yelling at a newborn baby when i was yelling for someone to come help me. soo im a bad mom

i breast fead soo she would have a stong immune system
i read 3 books a day to her since she was born soo she would be smart and she is
i spend soo much time with her every day teaching her all day and playing. she is never deglected
when i go grocery shopping i get a months worth of food for her and 3 days worth for me
i dont spank her
 i displine her with love and i and teach her
i went back to college for her and im working soo hard.
i dont drink, i dont do drugs
she has more clothes then she needs
she has more toys then she plays with
i went through 3 sell phones because she keeps breaking them and i neve yelled at her. i told her it was ok ill just buy another one.
i take her to all of her check ups
i clean my apartment everyweek, so she doesnt develop allergies from dust.
i cry when i miss her when she stays the night with my mom
i love her soo much. all i am is a mother, thats all that i do. i dont do anything else. what am i doing that makes me a bad mom. i dont understand.

this is why i try to avoid talking about my family on here but i had to get this out.

 

she is soo silly

 

( more pictures )

oral communications: i have to write an informative speech with a power point. i don't know what to write about yet ahhh. i hate that. it's due march 3rd so i have some time. we had to write a urology which is a speech given at funerals. i wrote about my dog marchal who got hit by a car. marshal was half miniture poodle and doxin. he was very special to me because i had always wanted a dog. i always asked for on every christmas and birthday. i got marshal when i was 20. he was everything to me. he took up most of my time and was my best friend. when i was pregnant with wendy i went to go stay with my grandmother in louisianna. while i was gone he got hit by a car and died. no one told me until 4 months later after wendy was born. i had kept calling my sister asking how he was and what he was doing and she would ly and say oh hes fine hes playing in the backyard. but when i found out i cried and i cried. cause i kept telling wendy about him and ohh she would have loved him. he was the best dog ever. anyway. we also have to write a group speech for our final exam. my group is going to talk about different culture since we are all different. we will talk about our history, food and dress. so i'm cajun i will dress up like it's mardi gras and make some king cake for the class. this will be fun i can't wait for this speech.

tomorrow: wendy has a doctors apointment to check to see if she's gaining weight. i'm sure she has. but maybe not because i'm a little person too.

apartment: our electricity is off because we have not payed the bill. we i dont have my half, and our room mate the left is trying to get out of paying rent and utilities. we are also way behind on our rent because i havn't gotten my grant money from school yet. stressed out and no one is hiring damnit.

ok i am on birth control, and i have forgotten to take 2 pills the other week but i took them as soon as i remembered. but since then i have been taking them everyday at the same time. friday raven and i had sex for the first time in a month. today i woke up ate breakfast took my pills and when i got dressed and went to brush my teeth all the sudden i got sick and threw up in the sink. i didn't feel sick after or before. i just threw up out of no where. now with wendy i never had morning sickness. soo i dont know if thats morning sickness or if my body just felt like throwing up. anyway i am expecting my period this weekend. i hope it appears and i hope i dont strangly through up like that again.

roomates: my roomates aj and ryan got in a fight and aj moved out. ryan is saying he's going to move out. i hope he does because he has been nothing but disrespectful to us. soo my fiance raven might be moving if he can find a job to help. right now he's doing pressure washing put they only work him one day a week for 2 hours for $20. yeah and that sucks. but it's hes has been able to find and 3 months and i still can't find anything.

Homework: medical law and ethics; i have to write a paper on how a law is made and turn it in by thursday.

Wic: had a wic apointment today. nothing really intresting happened there.

wendnesday: wendy has a doctors apointment to check her weight because at her 18 month check up her weight was too low. but she eats fine. my mom said my weight was always off the charts but i ate just fine. we are just thin people. i think wendy is fine. she eats like a pig. i can't imagine her eating more then she does.

this past weekend: raven came to spend the night and him and i and wendy had soo much fun. we played bowling on wii and wendy was our cheerleader, she was shouting and laugh at us and throughing my flip flops around like they were pom poms. we played at the park. raven went down the slide with wendy, and swung her on the swing in his lap. i really wish i had a camera but i didn't at the time.

this weekend: is valentines day, i dont know what we are doing i know i am making raven a homemade card from me and wendy. sunday i have yoga and belly dancing class.

 

to do list:
call and make an apointment to do my W'2 with HandR Block
apply: at target, michaels, coplands, steak n shake, publix, the mall
apply for the presschool club at publix for wendy.
 

they song songs and read stories pertaining to groundhogs day. they also colored a picture of a ground hog. wendy met another little girl there that was 2 months younger then wendy and was talking good and was allready potty trained and wearing underwear. i was shocked. i just started potty training wendy and people are telling me she's too young.

1. my nick name is supercoolhappylovething. this is what my rainbow family calls me, my fiances rainbow name is raven, but they couldn't think one word or thing or animal to call me lol.

2. i'm a rainbow, i go to rainbow gatherings in the national forest around the country. last one i went to was in colorado in 2006. i plan on going this month to the ocala florida gathering cause it's it's closer to home.

3. i'm engaged to melvin aka raven. we have been together for 3 years in march. we met in st. patricks day in st. augustine.

4. we have a daughter Wendy, who will be 2 in may. i am in the process of potty training her. i also do yoga with her she loves it. she is also lactose intolerant. and she still doesn't talk yet or have much hair. i love playing school with her, i read to her, we sing and dance, we count, say our abc, do art, and learn our body parts.

5. i love yoga. i go to complimentary yoga classes every sunday.

6. i have been out of work for 3 months because finding a job around here sucks. and when i do find a job i get stuck with temporary seasonal positions.

7. i go to college for medical assisting. this is my secound year. i'll graduate next january. i want to work in a ob/gyn clinic.

8. i sing, i love to sing, folk and punk rock music.

9. i love to hula hoop, learning how to hula hoop dance

10. i love crafts. i love cutting things up and making new or better usses for them. like old t-shirts i like to make them look cutter.

11. i live in an apartment with 3 room mates. maxine my best friend from high school, her ex ryan, and there friend aj. i don't live with my fiance cause some stuff whent on between him and my roomates. so my fiance lives 40 mins away until we can make it on our own with just us. me maxine and ryan are all in college, and aj is just a garbage man, but he works hard and make more then us soo he's always sweet and helping everyone out. but then he's very hard to get along with.

12. i'm 23 and i was just told yesterday while buying a pack of cigarettes that i looked 14. yeah and that get's annoying.

13. i have eczema, that's very annoying too.

14. i love the beach.

15. i think morning is the best time of day for me.

16. i love to read magazine, i read soo many all the time. i am always online searching for free magazines and catalogs to get in the mail.

17. i love to drink tea, it's soo yummy. all kinds of tea.

18. i love to read, i had no time to read last year, this year i'm forcing my self to read a book every month, i will post what books i'm reading on my profile page.

19. my favorite restaurant is coplands. it's sooo good. i've been eating there since i was little when i lived in louisianna. but when i moved to florida they didn't have on for 13 years. i've just recently discovered one and i went twice last month.

20. i was born in new orlean, moved to florida when i was 11. all my family is in louisianna.

21. i have a sister becky who's 18, she's about to graduate from high school and go into college to be a drug couselor or something like that, she also works at burger king. my have 2 brothers shawn is 20 and is in college for no one knows what lol, he works at macdonalds. and my brother matthew is 16, he's in the band at his school, he plays the trombone.

22. my favorite holliday is haloween

23. i love folk music, and punk rock, and classic rock

24. i have only been to one rock concert and that was a guns and roses concert. i went on the halloween of 2006 when i was pregnant with wendy.

25. i love ice cream




 

1. How do you feel about travel?  Like it, love it, hate it?  Wish you did more or less or neither?  Do you have wanderlust?   Are you a homebody?
i love traveling, and i don't do enough of it.  i want to do more, but it's hard when you got school, work, and a baby.

2. What's the furthest you've ever been from home (whatever that means to you) in terms of physical distance?  How about culturally?
the furthest i've ever been from florida is when i went to colorado springs for a rainbow gathering in 2006, i've also been to washington dc, which is pretty far also

3. Are there places you'd like to go but haven't?
yes i want to go to alot of places here in florida  like ocala, and apalachicola. i want to go to new mexico, and i want to go to brazil, thialand, and africa.

4. Are there places you return to?  Are there places you return to because you want to?
no i havn't gone back to anyplace. but i would love to go back to colorado.

5. Travel is often associated with things like self-discovery and identity formation.  Does it work this way for you?  Why or why not?
i travel to learn not just about myself but other people and places. i have learned alot about myself when i travel, not expecting to though.

school: is keeping me busy lots of homework.  i have to write a speech soon on anything i want. an informative speech on anything i choose to talk about. i was thinking about writing about temper tantrums: what causes them, coping with them, and and preventing them. i read a really good article in a baby club newsletter on this, and i'm going to use it has reference. plus i'll need another reference which i'll go to the library for, or find an article on the internet. and then i need to make a powerpount presentation.

W2's: i have 2 i'm still waiting on 2 more to come in. i can't wait for that money. it will help go toward saving up for a car, which i need really bad.

other: i have no plan this week but to study, grocery shop, and make valentine cards. i am also still looking for a job. no one is hiring.

other things this month i'm looking foraward to:
wendy's doctor apt
ocala rainbow gathering
valentines day
midterms
mardi gras: king cake, that's what i love the most about that day lol
and i would like to pick a nice day to go to the beach. when it's not chilli out.

Wendy loves to play dress up. i don't have much play clothes for her but she has a tutu that she loves. and she loves purses, makeup, and shoes, and jewelery.

she helps me put groceries away. i have a capinet close to the floor where i put all her food and dishes. so she knows where her stuff goes. so when i give her her box of cereal or something she goes and puts it back. same thing with her bowls and cups. she also throws thing in the trash if i ask her too. it's soo cute.

things to teach her:
jumping
hang by both hands on monkey bars with me assisting her of course.
kick a ball
she still needs to learn how to talk
string large beads

potty raining:
we are going to make checking the potty a daily routine.
i'm going to have her sit on the potty for awhile after lunch and before bed.
and gets some books and toys only for potty time.
show her how to wash her hands every time we practice.

i feel like crap,i have been sick for 2 days. sore throat, congesed, body aches, the chills. wendy is still at my moms and i miss her, i dont want her around me while im sick. plus all i do is sleep, and i wouldnt have the energy to take care of her. i hope i get better soon.

top 5 favorite things to touch/feel:
1. petting puppies
2. holding a baby
3. blankets
4. hugs from wendy
5. bubble baths

school last night: so i got a A on my 'about me speech'. i talked about being a mom: i became a mother May 15, 2007. my daughter, named wendy, is 19 months old. i was 21 when i had her and she changed my life. she forced me to grow up. she's the reason why i am in college. she both keeps me sane and drives me up the wall. i breast fed her for one month. i planned on breastfeeding until she was 6 months but she became lactose intolerant.  i practice attachment parenting. i co-sleep, i don't and will never spank her nor yell at her, i discipline her with love and give her respect. she's a good baby. i talked about being a rainbow warrior: i am part of the rainbow family we are into intentional community building, non-violence, and alternative lifestyles. we also believe that peace and love are a great thing and there is not enough of that in this world. many of our traditions are based on native American traditions and we have a strong orientation to take care of the earth. we gather in the national forests yearly to pray for peace on this planet. i also love yoga: i started doing yoga 3 years ago when i was pregnant and i loved it. i salute the sun every morning and meditate twice a day. i go to the lulu lemon (an athletic clothing store) every sunday morning for free yoga classes. i one day want to go to yoga school and become a yoga instructor for kids and pregnant women.

today: i am sick with a cold. so i have done nothing but read and get rest.