uncrossyurheart:

We spent all day pretending that today was Christmas eve and tomorrow is Christmas so my 6 year old brother and 4 year old son can have more time to play with their toys together. I'm waiting fir Adrian to fall asleep so I can get up and eat the cookies we left by the fire place and fill the stockings.

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analyzeeveryone:
I'll post later about the party and stuff but I think this sums up somethings.



Dad. I'm mad. Tonight me and mom got into an argument. I was trying to talk to her because I have been kinda upset about not getting a birthday cake. I asked her a few days before my birthday for one. I wanted a little ice cream cake or a chocolate moose one like you use to get me. You know I wanted a cake with my 21 candles to make my 21 birthday wish. So while I'm trying to make this point she keeps changing the subject an so I get mad. I'm not happy about my birthday at all. What I had wanted to do..And I told both bobby and mom.. was that I wanted to eat lobster tails with mom and bobby and have a birthday cake.

But what ended up happening was I went to bone fish with mom which just started drama. I didn't get to have friends over because they wont come over because of bobby and none of my friends had planed to go out with me and most of them are in Tallahassee. So instead Saturday I went to another girls party who is my friend. Her birthday is the day before mine. So it was a lot of people she knew and only 2 of my friends.

While me and mom were arguing I got mad because she keeps saying blah blah blah her house and stuff. But if she had not done tax fraud by not file her taxes then I would have had grant money to help me pay for my apartment that I lost when I started school! I would also only be 1 mile from school so I could walk if I needed to. I feel its partly her fault that I'm here in the first place. Not only that but because she let bobby move in with out thinking about anything we are both stressed out constantly. I'm tired of living in fear here because of bobby and his stupid drinking and guns. If I would have known he was going to move in while I was here I would have never came here! So I'm trapt with no where to go.

I'm so depressed I just want out of here! I can't get a job I can't even get an interview! I want to move out so badly but nothing is working out. And my car is broken making it even harder on me to get to school and find a job. I'm hoping that I can get financial aide for spring semester but I wont find out for a few more weeks.

Why don't you guys have money saved for college? Didn't you say that you had saving bonds? Do I have to take out a loan so I can go to school and get out of here? None of us could get grants if you and mom were still married. Did you guys even plan for college?

I don't feel like I've being treated fairly. I was in school for almost a year before bobby but it was when he started than mom jumped to getting him financial aide. So now he already has hes grants and stuff and I have nothing! Then I feel bad because of how much classes and books cost.

I try so hard to make you and mom happy and proud of me and I feel like I can't. Mom doesn't care how hard I'm trying in school all she cares about is herself. She more willing to help bobby then me! I've been the good kid! So why does he get more help then me? He got to move in and brake things and get to be drunk and break my door and scare me but he got mom to do his college stuff! He got to be bailed out of jail how many times? How much did that all together cost with court fines? I got to move in then get to be scared most nights and have nightmares.

Sometimes I wish me and Ryan had not broken up because then at least I would have my own place away from bobby and Ryan would have probably fixed my car.

This year has been the worst year of my life! I lost everything! I lost my apartment, I lost my car, I lost my cookie, Ryan left me and ruined everything, and now I'm stuck with bobby.

I just want some help out of here! Some place where I can go to school and be able to come home and relax and sleep at night. I thought I was going to be able to do that here but its all been ruined. I can't stay here with him another 4 months! I just don't know what to do! What am I suppose to do?

uncrossyurheart:
Happy Birthday, Milo!
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analyzeeveryone:
I’m getting really tired of the stress I’m being forced to suffer through. Yet another night of annoyance has passed with bobby acting like a retard and shooting his gun in the house. Now I’m pretty sure it is against the law to give a retard a gun license…
At long last my final day of school is Tuesday.

This Friday is my 21st birthday. Finally. Thought nothing ever goes as planned and I won’t have the proper 21st birthday as I had hoped. Every year my birthday plans never work out. Its all because of 2 obstacles… money and bobby. This birthday I’m going to have a major lack of gifts as well…normally my dad will send me money and a few things and then my mom would get me something. Last year I got money and a wii for my b-day. The year before that I got my palm from my mom. I do believe I will be getting a laptop for my b-day still... but the trip to the Bahamas is my main gift but I don’t do that till January or February… I guess my mom is just taking me out to dinner.

What I want other then the laptop and the trip is a iphone or a pda. I hate not having a full keyboard. I also need some jeans that fit and some more tank tops and a few long sleeve shirts. Khaos is trying to get me some molly or x…it be nice to finally roll with him. I can’t wait to have sex with him on it…oh god…
I’ll be very happy if Khaos gets the job at Taco Bell. I have o real doubt that he won’t. Closer to being out of here and back with him. His money on top of my gas money will make life more pleasant.